I feel so melancholy lately, it's been like this for a while, can't remember since when, not exactly sure why either. 

Maybe it's because of work, company just announced that there'll be no salary raise for all seller this year...phuck!!  Urgh...no salary raise, even if i am one of the top performer, what's the point.  My immediate thought is to find a new job.  A new job that would pay more and have some new challenges.

Besides no pay raise, work is been so boring.  The job, the co-workers, the customers....same shit over and over again.  Got no passion and drive anymore, sometimes i don't even wanna go to work.  

I am heading to BJ again this weekend to see my bf.  Been there too many times, I don't really like the city, it's too dry.  Long distance relationship is so difficult, don't really know where we're heading.

Seems nothing is good in life these days....Sigh...maybe i should think of nothing and go sleep...